I've been in a blurry world for a while...it's like my life is one of the very very soapy soap operas (with fair share of smiles, tears, frustrations, angers, fears, and indecisiveness) and I'm the potato couch watching my own life in both good and bad times. I was washed away deep into the middle of my treacherous sea of life, gasping for air, tired of holding on to my life and at one time almost drowned but somehow there's always someone or something that pull the heck out of me to the surface. I'm sooooooooooooo lost, yeah, just like TV series " LOST", so if you happen to see me wandering aimlessly like an Alzheimer patient (though I'm not), hope you'll kindly guide me to the right way. Okay before I further twist your mind and get you to a state where you'll actually drown me in the sea for confusing you soooooo much, let me update what actually happened to me these few day..as always there won't be sweetness before the bitterness...just like the cocoa fruit being bitter and turned into the mouth watering creamy, yummy, sinful choco that make our day.
First, my boyfriend went back to Korea. There, I've said it as bluntly as possible. We DIDN'T break up and promise to keep in touch through e-mails and he'll phone me once he reach there. Did he call me? A big FAT NO! It's been 3 days and not a single call. E-mails? I've e-mailed every single three days that had past. Nope, no replies. The reason he has to go back to Korea is because of financial difficulty here due to global economic crisis. So his "Abugi" (dad) ordered him to go home. Okay, I am for one very VERY VERY understanding. So I told him " Go ahead, go back, if it's the best for you...but before that what'll happen to us?". Being optimistic or indecisive or trying to kid himself, HE SAID " We'll still keep in touch, and he'll TRY to come back here, probably Sept but no promises.". Okay, so since I still believe in us, I thought why not give the long distance thing a shot. But deep down in my heart, I'm not the innocent child that believe everything is happy ending. Lots and lots of temptations and obstacles will come our way and we might even drift away temporarily or worst permanently. So no hard feelings, if we're meant to be we'll be brought back together by fate, If no, well let the life take its course. Well, no pain no gain right?! I've learn from my past experiences, that happy endings will not happen in a blink of an eye. It takes faith, time, lots and lots of problems, arguments, give and takes, and even break ups and make ups before we finally meet the one and only soul mate. So all I have to say to myself, is I'm young, my life not going to end just because a relationship not going to work, I've LOTS of people who actually do care, love, support, and believe in me, goals and ambitions in my life, stuffs I like to do, and God who'll always be my guiding light. So although I'm now in a "hanging" position with my boyfriend, I'll give it a year, if no contact and reasonable explanation for not contacting me as soon as possible, I'll consider our chapter close. Parting is such a sweet sorrow. But it makes us and me grow. Cheers to life ;)
Before my boyfriend went back to Korea, we had an early Valentine, and he gave me a set of Cecilia Ahern's books (the author of P.S I love you). I totally love the books. There are three of them and I'll write the reviews once I finish them. I've only read half one the book, entitled "Where the Rainbow Ends". I'm terribly busy currently with assignments, quizzes and coming midterms, so I guess I'll write the review of the first book during my mid sem break.
And every cloud has a silver lining. I actually had a nice valentine with my home tuition students, Shawna (Form 5) and Yaani (Form 3). Since Valentines day is on Saturday, there are only having Maths that day. So we cooked chicken bolognaise spaghetti together, had Sparkling apple wine (non alcoholic) and ice cream for dessert and watched Titanic movie before having tuition. We took some pics of the food and us. We had a blast, good food, lotsa laughter, and soapy movie together. Love ya girls ;) So here are some memories of the wonderful night:
And I miss Joanna!!!!!!!!! She went to KL since last Friday and will only be coming back tomorrow. Classes without her is weird and kinda sad without her for me. So there's only Earnest and me fending each other for our classes and we actually had some fun together, teasing and throwing sarcastic comments here and there in a good way. :D
As for today, I had Interpersonal class from 8 - 10 am. Earnest and me hardly pay attention (only at the beginning) due to not really understanding what the lecturer trying to say. We often figure out the notes by ourselves after doing some revision at home. So we end up "mengumpat" (criticizing badly) the lecturer. God, I don't how bad our karmas gonna accumulate. :D
The, we had quiz at 4 pm for Management in Leadership class. Both Earnest and me haven't studied. At least I had printed out the notes and he hadn't. So he went back home to print out notes and study. So I was left by myself in Unitar to study. Just as I was about to enter the library, my stomach was grumbling so I decided to grab some buns and drink from the bakery. ON my way to bakery, I've to pass the Mamak stall and I spotted Janet and Isabella, my other close unimates, having their brunch together with two other classmates. So I joined them and Bella who is also taking Management class with me decided for study group together. So after brunch, Bella and me went to Maktab Gaya KK library. After revising there for two hours, Bella dropped me back t Unitar before sending the car back to her pet sister (the owner of the car). So I went to the Uni's library and tried my best to revise more. After and hour or so, Bella joined me again in the revision and then we went to class together for the quiz. Bella and I got to know each other better today and we discovered that we live in the same area, Putatan. So we planned to go for jogs, study group, and maybe pilates class together on March.
I suddenly craved for something cooling and minty to ease my headache due to last minute study cram. So I texted Earnest to get me Yoyo or Easy way peppermint milky tea. Bless the boy, he woke up late from his nap and forgotten to buy the drink and left me "kemempunan" .He promised to make up for the drink on our Language and Theaters class on this Friday. As for the quiz, it's open book after all. So Bella, Earnest and me share notes and discussed and managed to get through the quiz. Hope the result will be okay. So note to self: No more last minute crams, prepare early!. My head was pounding like crazy all the way back home.
My aunt fetch me as usual, and we visited my youngest aunt's mother in law in the orthopedic ward in QE. Saw some hot docs! *heart shaped corneas* The poor darling dear slipped and broke her leg at home and admitted there. After the visit, we reached home around 6.10 pm and I quickly get ready for tutoring in the tuition centre which start at 7 pm. I made a quickie tuna sandwich and gobble it down before watering my stomach with soya bean and headed for work.
Well, tutoring went kinda well. A student actually had me lose my cool when he acted like a brat. So the rest of the class and him were stunned when they finally discovered my fiery side that I don't like to show much. You should see the sudden obedience and awe in their faces. Hehe! Don't mess with me when I have a pounding head like someone struck me over and over with a hammer. The kid apologized, which is good, and i became the cool and fun tutor again. :)
So now I'm back at home after tutoring. I've to finish off my research method assignment today and then I can hit the hay before going for office duty in the tuition centre at 8 am. Okay! Laters!!
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